1. |
Centuries
04:26
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When all that's left is love,
slow the heartbeat into silence and
surrender to the violence in your blood.
For there will come soft rains again
and you will feel the silent hand of God.
The past is no one.
Stuttering you'll go
to where your feet recall the footsteps
that were taken here so many years before.
As if by no one,
as if by nothing more than circumstance
you rose.
I'll try to catch
the bliss of these moments that pass
before they fall behind me,
as you do;
as you did.
For centuries I roamed
As silent as the snow.
(baby won't you came home)
The past is yourself.
In the moments where you lose yourself,
you live.
Tell me, is this all there is?
The sum of all these yesterdays is loss.
Tell me it's the same for you.
That meeting eyes could bring a heart to beat
and how.
Yet now, all this sentiment
amounts to little more than scattered ashes
in the ground.
Try to catch
the bittersweet moments that pass
before they fall behind you,
as I will;
as I do.
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2. |
Obsession
03:55
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Every night you sell your soul,
the debt you owe
that you must know the ache of too much love.
It follows you home
it sleeps inside your bones,
it calls you on
and leads you out here.
Hiding in shadow,
silent and unknown.
Pulls the rug from out your feet,
it seems we let it come between us after all,
my sweet,
the devil's in the detail you don't know.
A prayer for light to swallow my sky.
The devil sells the sweetest lie
that you could conquer time.
It follows you home,
a beat behind your pulse.
It swallows your love
and leaves you down here.
Falling through limbo,
silent and unknown.
Every night you sell your soul,
the debt you owe
that you must bare the weight of all you stole.
It swallows you whole,
pulls you through the floor.
It calls you on
and leads you down here.
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3. |
Long Time Dead
03:10
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Would you tell me it's a lost cause?
I ache to sleep
but how the thoughts keep crashing
through a landslide head.
Would you tell me it's a last chance?
Would you tell me let the past stay in the past?
It's been a long time coming
and we're a long time dead.
It's been a long time running
and there's a long way yet.
I'm still puzzle-piecing,
nine months clear.
Jigsaw heart, it's been a long year.
They packed away the box and put me here
but if it makes it easier to leave me,
I'll make it easy.
I know you may never well believe me
and there are reasons for that.
When the mystery is solved
will you be moving on?
I'd rather hoped you'd stick the long run
and we could face what we'd been scared of
but if it makes it easier to leave me,
I'll make it easy.
It's been a long time coming
and we're a long time dead.
It's been a long time running
and there's a long way yet.
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4. |
All That I Know
04:09
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Castaway,
my head was driftwood
battered by the waves.
I was beaten black and blue by love.
What goes around comes round, son.
What goes around comes round, my God.
Beneath this starless sky
I sing to you without reply
and pray that this new day
will guide you home.
You are all that I know.
You are all I want to know.
So long,
I wait so long.
Every night I play your hymnsong,
it calls me on.
Face to face,
I catch my promise as it breaks
and swear today
that I will lay my soul at truth.
You don't believe that do you?
Another ounce of flesh
to pacify regret
who bides his time
and reels the line,
you hold your breath.
It won't be long now my sweet.
It won't be long now til we'll see.
It's alright,
I know that now is not the time
to draw the line,
it's six years time;
I still remain.
The choice was mine and I stayed.
I don't know why now some days.
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5. |
Unclear
04:43
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Gather up your days
and we can lay waste
to the past that you can't face.
Now we'll part the waves,
drain the oceans
and send you on your way.
Meanwhile, half smiles,
as I wait for you to flood my veins.
Next time will be the last time, we'll say.
Next time will be the last time.
Gather round, my sweet
and in our missed beat
I'll draw a circle round our feet
to cast-off dead love
and chase hope
with you, where all is solved.
Oh that things were different, you'll say.
If only things were different.
And the truth be told,
I gave up my love to lie here,
though the reasons are unclear.
You gave up your love to lie here
now the reasons are unclear.
The clock won't stop,
the clouds will gather up the sky,
as you become my eye.
If this is madness
I don't mind.
Flood my ears and fill my eyes.
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6. |
Meanwhile
01:50
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7. |
Reveal
04:02
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It speaks to me now.
In whispers and dull tones,
the longing in ripples and folds.
Surges and falls.
Each passing fragment
is blistered with yearning,
it echoes around as your pulse.
It's a joke.
This translation inadequate,
each word I have spoken
can never quite mean what it should.
Hemorrhging love.
The beauty got lost
to this dumb clunk of nothing
that emanates now from my tongue.
I got it all wrong.
It coarses the blood.
I'd pierce every organ to puncture the sound if I could.
Could we leave it to God
to reveal himself now in the words you can't find
there is love.
You got it all wrong.
Cover your eyes,
for I'm blind in this daylight
with mirrors encircling me.
I didn't want you to see.
Here comes the descent.
as my spine turns to glass
and each line that is cast
leads to no one.
They come undone again.
Words aren't enough
to bridge this disparity,
will it always be echoes and rust,
dusk to dusk?
As I'm pulled underneath
will I drown in the light
that I've so longed to see?
Will it guide me
when I'm lost?
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8. |
All As One
02:31
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9. |
Gloria
02:38
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The Last Letter - Ted Hughes.
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